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awwwwwww.....thats not fair! .........so dang needy!!!! It's like withdrawal!

shell wrote:

N.E.D. wrote:I know, but, I cant help myself, I just want to do whatever you want, I guess I'm eager to hand over the reins, I dont know why but it's just nice not to be in control, even if it means I cant touch for the time being :)

I wonder how long the "time being" will be for.....*wicked smile*

and Now I'm even more worried!!!

shell wrote:

ukickedmiperro wrote:This should be interesting to keep a watch on over the next however long shell decides. I share your habit, so you may inspire me to actually follow through on abstaining from it. If only I had someone like shell to suggest I do so.

You can always join him in his quest... *grin*

*Gulp* If it would make you happy for me to join him, perhaps I will.

N.E.D. wrote: awwwwwww.....thats not fair! .........so dang needy!!!! It's like withdrawal!

what's not fair sweetie? *wicked smile*

N.E.D. wrote:

shell wrote:

N.E.D. wrote:I know, but, I cant help myself, I just want to do whatever you want, I guess I'm eager to hand over the reins, I dont know why but it's just nice not to be in control, even if it means I cant touch for the time being :)

I wonder how long the "time being" will be for.....*wicked smile*

and Now I'm even more worried!!!

you can stop when ever you like..................... *grin*

ukickedmiperro wrote:

shell wrote:

ukickedmiperro wrote:This should be interesting to keep a watch on over the next however long shell decides. I share your habit, so you may inspire me to actually follow through on abstaining from it. If only I had someone like shell to suggest I do so.

You can always join him in his quest... *grin*

*Gulp* If it would make you happy for me to join him, perhaps I will.

The more the merrier.... *grin*......but remember.....I'm not controlling you.........I'm only.........suggesting....it's by your free will that you do anything ..............I SUGGEST! *laughing wickedly*

Well are there any tasks that you suggest I should do before starting this quest?

ukickedmiperro wrote:Well are there any tasks that you suggest I should do before starting this quest?

Well, it's only fair that you catch up with Ned.
These were his instructions from yesterday......

For starters....no touching with your hand.....except to wash yourself. You can't even touch to pee....that ought to be fun figuring out how to do it.

The only time you can touch is to do this. Before you go to bed, get a wash cloth wet with hot/really warm (not burning) water.
Wrap your cock in it before you lay down. No touching!!!! *wicked laughter* If you wake up during the night, re-wet the cloth.

Enjoy! *wicked smile*

I, I cant stop, I need to submit, I want to continue even if it's difficult, please forgive me for trying to tell you whats fair and not shell and thank you for giving me the honor of doing this for you.

N.E.D. wrote:I, I cant stop, I need to submit, I want to continue even if it's difficult, please forgive me for trying to tell you whats fair and not shell and thank you for giving me the honor of doing this for you.

You can do this Ned.....I know you can...........*warm smile* Maybe you will get to touch, tomorrow....*wicked smile*....................maybe!

Okay, it's time for me to get off my PC for the night......sweet dreams.............*wicked laughter*

Thank you shell for the support :) Have a good night

Sounds like your having fun
FYI it is much easier to go no touch
when your wrapped by eiher plastic or steel (Chastity)
Also
I recomend staying dress and away from porn, and perhaps any tv.

I find myself trying to use loopholes to get around "dont use your hands" like not using my hands but still....I feel guilty.......I need to really hammer out a way to do this. I'll have to think about it more I suppose. I know that without the release of serotonin It's gonna be really difficult..... This is quite possibly the most difficult thing I have ever done period. I have to go to work but tomorrow when I get off I will post another update. And a heartfelt apology for my bad behavior. :(

Night one is over for me I guess you could say, although it wasn't a very long night. I wrapped the hot towel around my hardening cock and instantly felt it fill with blood. I had a feeling that I wasn't going to enjoy a good night's sleep when I felt my legs shaking just enough to draw my attention to them. As the towel slowly started to cool, I felt myself slowly drift to sleep. That lasted all of an hour however, until I woke up with a cold, wet towel wrapped around my now soft cock. I got up and rinsed it with hot water again and wrapped my cock back up. As I lay back down I could feel it straining against the towel for pleasure. As I slowly fell asleep again, I felt my balls start to ache a bit for release. I woke up an hour later once again, with a strong urge to pee, but also with all of the pains that stroking without release would usually bring. I got up and wet the towel once again. In all my excitement I had forgotten to pee, but decided that since I was already in bed, I wouldn't waste the warm towel, and just stay there. I fell back asleep for another 30 minutes at the most, waking up with urine pushing to escape my bladder, I got up one final time and ran to the bathroom to empty it. I have finally decided that trying to sleep tonight/this morning is a fruitless task so why waste my time?

This is update 2. yesterday was a very difficult day for me and full of shame for as well, but I will get there in a moment. First I will begin with nighttime and go backwards from there. before bed as per Shells Suggestions, I got a glass of warm water and set it on the floor. I started slowly pushing my erect cock into the warm water "a very exciting feeling*, but as I did so, another feeling came over me, the urge to pee. As I heard that doing this might result in such a thing I wasnt surprised, but what I didnt know was how long I was to do it for. I finally settled on 10:00 min. at halfway through I was doing everything in my power not to wet myself, at almost seven minutes in I had to stop beacuse the urge was unbearable and I felt myself loosing control. I quickly slipped my pants up and crawled under my warm covers holding back a river of pee as I tried to settle it down. I tossed and turned with my legs clenched very tight, I knew I wasnt gonna be able to stop it, but I couldn't let myself drench my bed either *ruined first bed borrowed this one* so I jumped up and ran for the door as my pants slipped off and I tumbled to the floor, as I landed I felt a warm wet sensation all around me..........I just pissed myself. I think I layed there for about 30 seconds in disbelief before quickly and quietly *so my roommate wont hear* went to clean up the mess and myself. after a brief shower, a dose of carpet cleaner and the washing of the cup. I finally went back to bed extremely tired and now sore.

several hours earlier: I had been suffering with the urge to play with myself all day, even after only a day I had felt the strange intensity in the form of a feeling above my cock. I kept saying outloud "Your not in control penis" *seriously, I did* and trying to focus on other things but allas I was being driven crazy. I stated thinking that by not using my hands I could still play a little as long as I didn't cum, I was wrong, it was wrong but yet I persisted and using a rolled up magazine rubbed the underside of my cock through my pants. I never came, but the guilt persisted and I felt really bad for doing what I did. So to shell I say this. I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart that I tried to weasel my way around your suggestion for my own personal gratification. What I did is un-acceptable and I only hope that you will forgive this pathetic wanker once again for his foolish and selfish display of perverseness. I really am sorry and it wont happen again