Milovana.com

Found this by accident but it seemed appropriate

And here's some more random style posting ...













I'm still looking for a nice hot story that takes 15 - 20 minutes to read. Does anyone have a favorite story that I might enjoy (or hate ) ? Helpfull hints would be welcome.

Sorry I haven’t posted any reports till now, but here is everything up until today, I've used the spoiler thing to stop the post from being massive:
Day 1:

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Starting on page 635 as Della instructed I started a new round with what I am imagining will be a much scarcer target. With my first session of stroking I managed to get through about a page and a half of posts although one of the videos posted no longer works. I managed to find one target to edge to quite early on. However I found no others until I reached a point where each set of stroke for an image brought me really close to an edge (made worse by some very hot facial gifs) so I had to finish for the day as I didn’t want to push myself too far too early.

Total edges: 1
Current page: 636

Day 2:

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I picked up where I left of on page 636, and found it quite tough going, lots of images and not a target in sight. With my first session of stroking I only made about halfway through page 637, before having to take a break, mostly thanks to Banquo’s story post (very nice). I did restart after a couple of hours but only managed to reach the end of page 637 before I started to feel that I was getting too excited too quickly (as well as being a good stopping point), which was mostly caused by finding a further two targets and a couple of video posts.

Total edges: 3
Current page: 637

Day 3:

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Starting again on page 638 (having made it to the last post on 637) I barely got started this time before having to take a break. After two days without release but alot of stroking plus the fact that I ran into three targets in quick succession left me extremely frustrated and leaking precum quite freely. After quite a long break, I started stroking again but only managed to make it about halfway through before having to stop for the day.

Total edges: 6
Current page: 639 Almost managed to make it all the way to the end of

Day 4:

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I was definitely starting to feel the frustration now before I even started. Almost managed to make it all the way to the end of page 640, but was starting to feel like I was getting too close with every stroke so I had to stop. No targets found today, only frustration.

Total edges: 6
Current page: 640

Day 5 (today):

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Picking up at the end of page 640 I managed to make it half way down page 641 before having to stop, hitting two targets right next to each other. It was really difficult for me to stop at the edge for both of these and just stare at my twitching, precum leaking cock in frustration. Tried to restart but I barely made progress at all before finding myself getting too close to the edge. I was especially frustrated on this page as there were loads of photos that almost fit my target but just weren’t quite right.

Total edges: 8
Current page: 641

Hopefully I should be able to post more regularly, avoiding posts as long as this.

In other news:

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/woman-spot ... 400243?=HB

I wonder if this is anyone on Milovana?

Thanks Banquo, thankfully it hasn’t happened too often. It was a lot worse for consecutive edges in my last round, I came across entire post that were all my target. Not sure whether that’s a good or bad thing now though as my new targets seem to be much scarcer

Day 6:
Restarting on page 641. I managed to have several shorter sessions today, the frustration is definitely building and I’m finding that I have less time between needing to take breaks.
By taking frequent and long breaks, I managed to make it all the way to the end of page 643 (a combination of every stoke bringing me close to the edge and a good natural stopping point). No edges today though .

Total edges: 8
Current page: 643

Something for Banquo

This reminds me of a game I used to Play



Oh .. and I do love this game

Della, if you allow me to play another round of your game I will encounter an added difficulty : I will be on holiday for almost 4 weeks during the next 6 weeks and I will not be able to play online for most of these 4 weeks. If this is alright with you I would still like to to play.

I've spent a wonderfull week of freedom and had time enough to enjoy what I miss most while in denial. Now, that I'm aware of what I intend to give up, I'm ready for another round of frustration - if you let me.

Please Della, let me join your game once more. And please add twists, that could keep me occupied while offline.

I woukd still like to folloq the instructions laid out for me in the spoiler and to do this comming Saturday - unless you decide otherwise. After that I will be ready to start on my next adventure in denial.

I hope you will forgive me, but I have one more very selfish request: please don't make this round last as long as my last one If the other players had not encouraged me to go on I would have given up long before that round finally finished.

However, if you let me join again I will play by your rules only - even if want me to go for 90 days or more.

Day 7
After no targets yesterday I decided that today I was not giving up until I came across one, so today could last a long time with a lot of breaks.
And after deciding that I ran straight into a target after only a few images. So now I am going to keep going for as long as I can before stopping. After a short break after the edge, definitely necessary, I managed to finish the page before taking a break for about half an hour before continuing. Now I started stroking through the next page making good progress to start with but as I moved further down, I found myself getting close to an edge on almost every image. This meant I was taking short 1-2 minute breaks between almost every post but I was determined to continue through my frustration. Eventually I managed to complete the page and loaded the next only to run into some videos.
The videos were kind of a double edged sword, they gave me a break from stroking (until the last minute) but kept me constantly horny throughout . After these videos I felt like I really needed to take a stop the slow stroking really got to me.

I am definitely starting to feel the build of frustration and am feel the horniness throughout the day. Hopefully I can find my next 6 targets soon

Total edges: 9
Current Page: 646

May I join your game Miss Della?

Shaithis wrote:May I join your game Miss Della?

well first off the only one who gets to call me Miss Della is Banquo. So try again and I will consider letting you join

I am sorry for that, I meant no offense. May I please still join your game Della?

illtaket42 wrote:I've spent a wonderfull week of freedom and had time enough to enjoy what I miss most while in denial. Now, that I'm aware of what I intend to give up, I'm ready for another round of frustration - if you let me.

Please Della, let me join your game once more. And please add twists, that could keep me occupied while offline.

I would still like to follow the instructions laid out for me in the spoiler and to do this comming Saturday - unless you decide otherwise. After that I will be ready to start on my next adventure in denial.

I finished the spoiler task and enjoyed 8 edges that left me wanting more. Here's the story: http://www.literotica.com/s/the-torment-of-denial for anyone interested.

Della, may I now please start another round ?

Della,
I have thought about why I chose to break the rules. I hope that the following make sense. Sorry again. Thank you for being wonderful. I look forward to getting started again tomorrow :)

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Excuses:
1) I had barely stroked in two weeks. As I have mentioned previously it is so hard to stop when stroking after a couple days break. With the long break I was really desperate. (I knew the situation and knew to be careful and take breaks.)
2) The reason I hadn’t stroked much during that time was a lot of stressful situations, at work and personally. An orgasm can be a wonderful stress reliever. (I know if I really needed a break from the game I just needed to talk to you.)
3) I did stop, it was just much too late. It was more than a ruin, but I didn’t keep stroking until I came. I had stopped somewhat prior to climax, but much too late. (What, am I 13. I need to take responsibility.)

These are all true, but they are excuses that attempt to deflect or absolve me of responsibility. I think maybe the best way to explore why is to consider the thoughts running through my head at the time.

1) No one will ever know.
2) I could just start over at zero targets and it would be like it never happened.
3) What would happen if I got caught (confessed). Would I be punished? And then my mind started to wander to the punishments, the ideas of which turned me on.
4) It would feel so good. Maybe I can just get a little closer.
5) You already went too far and are going ruin, you might as well finish.

I did have the angel on my other shoulder trying to talk sense into my devilish thoughts. Ultimately, that voice lost the argument.

I think the bottom line is that why I did it was out of selfishness. I wanted to have an orgasm more than I wanted to follow the rules. I was ok submitting to the game as long as I was at some level in control. I lost my commitment to really give up control. I chose me over the game. I deeply regret that decision. I realize that there is a line somewhere, and some grey area, where of course my selfish desires overlap with truly giving up control. We all enjoy playing the game, and a big reason is the ability to give up control. Of course I, and others, are going to want to have some wish fulfillment, some benefit, and many of the players, hopefully myself included, want to reciprocate by making the game enjoyable for you. I crossed line, or left that grey area, and focused on what I was getting – arousal, excitement, and ultimately an orgasm and less on what you were getting. I am sorry for allowing my focus to shift. This next round I will fully submit control to the game. And, I know from experience that I will enjoy it more that way. It wasn’t fun playing the game without following the rules. At that point it is just a bunch of pictures. And it was disrespectful to everyone here. I am sorry for that.

Here are some photos instead of all of the words.