Year of the Ruin

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Hello beautiful people of Milovanva.

I have been interested in and practicing ruined orgasms for some time now and I want to set a new challenge for myself. Last year I trained myself to ruin all my orgasms and ended up doing so for 6 months before switching back to allowing myself a full release every now and then. I was quite happy with this achivement, but I feel myself drawn to that sort of challenge yet again and so the only logical step is to try and go for one entire year without any full orgasms. Now since one year is a long time and many things can happen over that time I thought I would start a little thread on here and use it sort of like a blog, talking about my experiences throughout the year and keeping myself accountable at the same time. Also I will anwswer all questions any of you on here might have and if some of you on here would like to try and accompany me for a stint of my journey, by also trying some ruins for maybe a week or two, that would be awesome aswell.

So with the concept of my thread out of the way I will use the rest of this first post to give a little context as to why I am even doing this. What is it that draws me to a ruined orgasm? Well I am pretty bad at denial in a traditional sense. Like if I try to do tease and denial without any form of release for more then 5 or at max 7 days I always just fail. I get a sort of cold preassure sensation in my balls when I do that and I end up not really being able to sleep and then I just give in and cum. I do however really want to engage in some form of submission and denial, so that is where the ruined orgasm comes in. Instead of denying myself orgasm altogether I found that if I just deprive myself of a pleasurable release but still grant myself the relief of a ruined orgasm every couple of days I still find myself pretty horny all the time but in a way that I can bare since it doesnt cause as much preassure to build up in my balls. So I decided to engage in this form of "denial light". At first I struggled to keep myself in check and would fail and orgasm fully after a week or two but as time went on I got better at it, going for 1 month then 2 and finaly my current record of 6 months of only ruined orgasms.

Also I quite enjoy listening to erotic hypnosis and I will be doing so daily on my journey. I mainly listen to Lilithunleashed and MistressCalia. I also have a short loopable custom file by Lilithunleashed that tells me to ruin all my orgasms which I will be listening to daily as I go about my ruins and I commisioned a similar file from MistressCalia aswell but that will take some time to be finished as she has a long backlog of comissions. So if anyone here wants to talk about erotic hypnosis I am also very interested to hear thoughts, experiences and suggestions.

So wether you have some similar experiences to share, are interested in joyning me for a bit or just want to egg me on and revel in my struggles I am looking forward to reading all your replies!

P.S.: I hope I am posting this in the correct sub, should that not be the case please just let me know, thx.

[PlayfulGuy]

I'll be very interested to follow your journey. Lately I've been thinking about using ruins to extend the time between full orgasms myself. At the moment I'm at 91 days having only had ruins, and only 2 of those. It wasn't really on purpose though. Life just sort of happened, and this happened along the way. Long story.

I'm curious about how you trained yourself to have ruined orgasms, and how exactly you define ruined. Personally I define a ruin as leaking a drop or two of cum. So far I can only do that if it's on my first edge after I start a stroking session. Normally if I've done more than one or two edges, if I go over I just end up cumming. Would love some advice on how to fix that if you have any. On a couple occasions I had a ruined orgasm after doing like 60 or 80 edges, so exhaustion was probably coming into play there.

Also on a couple of occasions I've experienced releasing a normal amount of cum, but it just flowed out with no contractions, or only one small contraction at the end. I can't make that happen on purpose yet, and don't have a clue what triggered that. If memory serves I was very relaxed, and it may also have been after a long edging session....

Good luck, and keep us posted!

PG

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Hi there Playful Guy.

Thanks for the encouragement I will post on here at least once a week giving an update on my progress. Very interesting to read about your experiences with ruined orgasms and damn 91 days with only 2 ruins and no full release, that is some serious resistance to denial, I could never imagine myself pulling that of, so whatever the circumstances that caused it props to you for getting thorugh that, very impressive!

As for what I consider a ruined orgasm that seems to be a bit different from your definition. Leaking only a drop or two while edging I would consider more of just a close edge. A ruined orgasm to me is when you experience a proper orgasm contractions and all just after you already stoped stimulating. Sometimes I let go of my cock just as the orgasm starts, cutting off stimulation right before the orgasmic pleasure would start and sometimes I let go 3,5 or in extreme cases even 10 seconds before contractions and cum shooting or dribbeling out happens. Kind of depends on how much control I have in the moment. The ones with some hangtime before the ruined orgasm tend to leave you especially horny after. Dribbeling out cum without any contractions also sounds interesting, were you stimulating yourself as this was happening? I would guess that would be a result of exhaustion after long edging sessions. The PC muscle being to tired to muster proper contractions. I used to go for some very long edging sessions in the past aswell, not so much now though I find it can get overstimulating for me to edge a lot and now I much prefer a very slow teasing buildup followed by only 5 or 10 edges.

Hope this clears up some of your questions, I look forward to chatting some more in the future!

[Gopher]

What LilithUnleashed file are you listening to to enforce the ruined orgasm? Being hypnotized to only ruin is like my number one ideal right now, and I'd love to hear what's working for you

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What LilithUnleashed file are you listening to to enforce the ruined orgasm? Being hypnotized to only ruin is like my number one ideal right now, and I'd love to hear what's working for you

Its a custom file I got from being a high tier on patreon in the past. I would be happy to share it with you if you want.

[PlayfulGuy]

Hi there Playful Guy.

Thanks for the encouragement I will post on here at least once a week giving an update on my progress. Very interesting to read about your experiences with ruined orgasms and damn 91 days with only 2 ruins and no full release, that is some serious resistance to denial, I could never imagine myself pulling that of, so whatever the circumstances that caused it props to you for getting thorugh that, very impressive!

You're welcome, and I look forward to the updates...

A ruined orgasm to me is when you experience a proper orgasm contractions and all just after you already stoped stimulating. Sometimes I let go of my cock just as the orgasm starts, cutting off stimulation right before the orgasmic pleasure would start and sometimes I let go 3,5 or in extreme cases even 10 seconds before contractions and cum shooting or dribbeling out happens. Kind of depends on how much control I have in the moment. The ones with some hangtime before the ruined orgasm tend to leave you especially horny after.

Interesting. It's very rare I've started cumming several seconds after stopping the stimulation. I'll have to work on that...

Dribbeling out cum without any contractions also sounds interesting, were you stimulating yourself as this was happening?

No, I was not stilmulating myself during this. It's kind of awesome!

I would guess that would be a result of exhaustion after long edging sessions. The PC muscle being to tired to muster proper contractions. I used to go for some very long edging sessions in the past aswell, not so much now though I find it can get overstimulating for me to edge a lot and now I much prefer a very slow teasing buildup followed by only 5 or 10 edges.

Yeah, the exhaustion angle was my thinking too, as well as focusing on keeping the PC muscle relaxed at all times. While stroking, while edging, and while cumming. I've been practicing that for a couple years now at least, but it's still a challenge to keep it relaxed while cumming.

Till next time!

[PlayfulGuy]

What LilithUnleashed file are you listening to to enforce the ruined orgasm? Being hypnotized to only ruin is like my number one ideal right now, and I'd love to hear what's working for you

Its a custom file I got from being a high tier on patreon in the past. I would be happy to share it with you if you want.

I would love a copy of that too!

PG

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I would love a copy of that too!

PG

Sent you a pm.

Interesting. It's very rare I've started cumming several seconds after stopping the stimulation. I'll have to work on that...

You should try it sometime, the suspense is quite fun. Just edge and at the point you would normaly stop go for 2 or 3 more strokes before stopping. If that isn't enough to push you over try 4 on the next edge and so on until you ruin.

No, I was not stilmulating myself during this. It's kind of awesome!

Oh so a hands free orgasm, very nice! I have tried to achive one of those in the past as well but was never able to I would guess the long periods of denial you are capable of while I am not might make the diference.

Yeah, the exhaustion angle was my thinking too, as well as focusing on keeping the PC muscle relaxed at all times. While stroking, while edging, and while cumming. I've been practicing that for a couple years now at least, but it's still a challenge to keep it relaxed while cumming.

Thats super interesting actually. Practicing it for years even huh? Did you do that as a sort of tantric practice to try and cum without contractions so you have no, or at least less of a, refractory period or was it just a measure to avoid accidentaly cumming while you edge?

[Kinkyboots]

I would love to have the audio too. The though of ruining my orgasm is super hot. I tried a lot the hypo file "male ruination" from thehypnomistress.com but i love lilith audio style. so combining these too

[Gopher]

What LilithUnleashed file are you listening to to enforce the ruined orgasm? Being hypnotized to only ruin is like my number one ideal right now, and I'd love to hear what's working for you

Its a custom file I got from being a high tier on patreon in the past. I would be happy to share it with you if you want.

Yes, please! I would love that!

[MineTurtle]

What LilithUnleashed file are you listening to to enforce the ruined orgasm? Being hypnotized to only ruin is like my number one ideal right now, and I'd love to hear what's working for you

Its a custom file I got from being a high tier on patreon in the past. I would be happy to share it with you if you want.

If its okay could I also get a copy of that file?

[PlayfulGuy]

No, I was not stilmulating myself during this. It's kind of awesome!

Oh so a hands free orgasm, very nice! I have tried to achive one of those in the past as well but was never able to I would guess the long periods of denial you are capable of while I am not might make the diference.

I may have have misunderstood your original question, so to be clear, it wasn't what I'd call a hands free orgasm. I was stimulating myself up to the point of ruining, but then it was completely hands off while everything flowed out.

Yeah, the exhaustion angle was my thinking too, as well as focusing on keeping the PC muscle relaxed at all times. While stroking, while edging, and while cumming. I've been practicing that for a couple years now at least, but it's still a challenge to keep it relaxed while cumming.

Thats super interesting actually. Practicing it for years even huh? Did you do that as a sort of tantric practice to try and cum without contractions so you have no, or at least less of a, refractory period or was it just a measure to avoid accidentaly cumming while you edge?

It was both really. It started mainly as a method of avoiding accidentally cumming, but I knew it would help with ruining too and that was always a secondary goal. It took almost 2 years before I could ruin intentionally, but along the way it started happening spontaneously more often. Those times helped me to recognize the conditions that helped make it happen. Being totally relaxed, in the right frame of mind, focused on edging with no intention or desire for orgasm. Taking my time and being more fully in the moment, more mindful helps too. It was well worth the effort.

PG