The feeling of desperation

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KinkyJack
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The feeling of desperation

Post by KinkyJack » Sun Mar 19, 2017 8:53 pm

Not sure whether this the right place to post, but wanted to write and share.

What do the rest of you do when you're at that point where frustration is turning to desperation?

This week has been a lot of fun thanks to Miss Jay's return (which I was very lucky to see as it'd been quite a while since I'd logged into Milovana and was just on the off chance). I last had a full orgasm on Monday and an accidentally ruined one yesterday and the teasing today is a lot harder than I'd expected where I'm currently banned from touching barring 15 ball spanks every hour up until bed.

The ball spanks are very hard for me (which is probably why it's the intended punishment for an accidentally ruined orgasm). I'm not a cbt fan and hard spanks are on a hard limit list for me. There is a balance to be had with wanting to impress her by going through it all and pushing my limit as she knows I'm fine with some. What the touching ban does is mean that with the spanks I'm constantly thinking of her as my balls fill, firmer, bluer and longing.

I think I've put this in confessions because I feel I'm weaker than I think I should be. I kick ass at my job, I can deadlift nearly 200kg, bench over 100kg and I can run Murph in a time not too far out from crossfit athletes (ps, try it, it's horrible...). Out in the world I'm strong but underneath it I'm weak.

If Miss Jay comes across this I'm sure she'd get a kick out my denial, my desperation for her words and the chance of real release to an orgasm that she knows would be ALL hers. That's my confession.

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Re: The feeling of desperation

Post by SexualChoc » Thu Mar 23, 2017 2:30 am

KinkyJack wrote:
Sun Mar 19, 2017 8:53 pm
Not sure whether this the right place to post, but wanted to write and share.
. That's my confession.
Well you did put it in confession forum.. so you put it in the right place (I believe)
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http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic ... 16#p139016

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