Mercy or Merci ?

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Once again did my personal tease
Made just for me? :lol:
Well Yes!

I got Stroke at Medium My first round
MMm Have you ever tried to beg a computer to slow down
When it is set on Medium strokes?
I did! Didn't work obviously. But gave me idea so I
Edited the tease later, Now I could really be in trouble with that page.

Second round (han not edited yet)
I got put two vibes Under balls
Got stroke once every 3 page Twice
And then Medium Pace- EDGE
And I got Hold edge for 15 Sec
(with vibes?) ARRG almost didn't have to touch
to surf edge, kinda hard to not go over with the vibes still on
But I did it!

Took a break did some editing
and beacuse I have to head out to work
I loaded up a porno and did 3 more edges.

Still no orgasm
Tomorrow 1 month, 3 weeks!
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Well this evening I did a nice long tease
taking 2 hours to do
I must add I had a dream last night about having an orgasm.
All I know is I could barely sleep.
I was soooo Horney.
After doing 7 Edges over an extended period of time
I think I might sleep in my chastity cage, even with the pain.
Yet anouther level of denial reached.
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When all else fails...
This is a copy of a confession post:
Because I have been groveling for my Mistress.
I have been spending a lot on appologizing
I Never endorse Finacial Domination, but when sweeting a lady up- sometimes throwing Money, in the form of gifts, is a good last option.
I have also done a very humiliating task
Sorry, I can't give details but it was not actually sexual for me at all- not even a little
Suffice it to say
I have been kissing up to my Miss.

Anyway I must done such a good job.
Because she asked me if She should move my celibration (orgasm) party
to December.
(A whole month ealier than I thought)

I was stunned
I will be doing the party, after all how can I really say no?
But Part of me wonders, and wishes, for that Jan deadline.
I want to know how far I could go without...
I mean I am already breaking my own records, why stop?
But in her wisdom she knows me well.
sooo, perhaps an earlier release?
(still wondering if she will change her mind again and move it back to Jan...)
(Or if she is further tormenting me)
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I have noticed all
this denial has made me actaully start
enjoying (to a limited extent) CBT

I am not sure why.
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You are getting feelings you enjoy.

So your mind thinks of CBT as pleasure.

Our brain wants to do things we like/enjoy.

Its a conditioning thing.


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I thing there's two things to it for a sub. First is physical, and I doubt that anyone really enjoys pain from a physical side. The other is mental, and here's where sub's enjoyment from pain is. I think enjoying pain, is more about enjoying your position, the situation itself, where someone can inflict pain on you and you have to bear it. It just rings your submissive bell, that's why the experience is enjoyable. And I think it also have a great dependance on who is doing this.
Am I wrong? Maybe it does feels nice after all? I'm actually not into pain at all, as well as I'm bominant. and the most thing I'v ever done in this direction is spank a girl's ass a bit - and not too much and too hard.
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Nezhul wrote:I thing there's two things to it for a sub. First is physical, and I doubt that anyone really enjoys pain from a physical side. The other is mental, and here's where sub's enjoyment from pain is. I think enjoying pain, is more about enjoying your position, the situation itself, where someone can inflict pain on you and you have to bear it. It just rings your submissive bell, that's why the experience is enjoyable. And I think it also have a great dependance on who is doing this.
Am I wrong? Maybe it does feels nice after all? I'm actually not into pain at all, as well as I'm bominant. and the most thing I'v ever done in this direction is spank a girl's ass a bit - and not too much and too hard.
I think there is a 'gray' zone
that seems to depend on how sexually excited you are
I mean a second degree burn, that hurst like HELL! is not sexualy no matter how into pain you are
But Get a nice hard on and now
Swats to the rear, or balls are now not nessisarily negatively stimulating
The Marque de Sade was the first to comment on the 'change' Where pain and pleasure can mix together
I am still not a big fan of pain by itself.

But I wrote this when I realized That I actually wanted to use my Home-made Humbler
Or something pulling on my balls when I edge now
Where I would not have thought of that before.

Perhaps it is a sign of that 'change' That De Sade talks about
Obviously I am not at the point where I slam my hand with a hammer just for fun
Maybe my pain tolerance has rissen? I think that's it,
and Have learned to associate some pain with an edge?


Sorry I have not posted much lately been sucking up still to the Misses
Also thought the details of what is going on might be more intresting than I edged X number of times today.

I am still doing daily Edges, every day.
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Today I was stroking and edging
Pushing myself
and then
I hit this moment Were I was stroking
and I knew if I edged just once more I'd cum
But I didn't want to stop stroking
and I didn't want to cum- Okay I did want to
struggled with it for a while, 2 or 3 min
still holding ,my dick wanting to get there, knowing I couldn't

Frustrating!
Did NOT cum, not even a ruined!
REALLY wanted to, perhaps I should just stay locked up for a few days.
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Oh I should Add
that I am ordering a new Chastity device
It is metal
But this one is a bit different
Because I talked with the manufacturer, who makes it
Before buying (should have done that last time but I really didn't know my measurements)

I hope He makes it soon
I will test it when I get it and post a review
, He says I can even return it!
(Amazing)
Apparently sand blasts it clean and sells it

It sounds like a guy in a his own workshop so am somewhat hopeful this one will work

I should add that I actually had my current cage slip off, mostly
I guess I have gotten so use to it that it is no longer secure
Anyway The 1 and 1/2 ring Was on my balls and the long metal cage was hanging down my leg
The whole thing was pulling on my balls, I had to wait until I walked from my car into my home, about 20 yards before I could unlock and get some relief for my poor balls
talk about a Parachute weight!
soo am hoping for my new cage soonish, still being built!
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I don't know why are they making them so heavy? I guess the designers just don't think too much when choosing material.

And there's a lot of metals and materials that are really light, still strong enough to smash them with hammer, let alone using them as intended )
For example platinum, or strong alluminium should weight less than your balls, still be very secure. But nooooo we'll make those things from steel and iron... :w00t:
Yea, better use uranium. It's even heavier ) And your cock will grow tenfold (or will turn green and start talking) =)
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Coo a cock telling you how much it loves you when you do it that way :lol:


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Tha'd be fine, but imagine if it start's making dirty comments when you are to fuck a girlfriend? Sound's like a big trouble in your private life, lol.
"Damn, what's with the smell from a mouth, dude? Where'd you found her, man?!"
or in the middle of a romantic evening:
"Who need's that sissy blabbering?! Pull me out, I wanna see her face!!!"

Well, sounds scary to me. :lol: :lol: :\'-( :weep:
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I have stopped posting on this thread
I may post again here sometime
I took a break from Milovana
but I am back today


I have been locked up in my new Chastity belt
(did you read my review?)
http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic ... 203#p81203

So after beeing unable to stroke for 5 days
I am released today
I asked to be released because I want to stroke
I said to my Miss

Her reply?
You can stroke yourself 45 strokes.
I said only 45?
Well maybe 50 she replied
I asked is it 45 or 50?
Her answer was
Alright I want you to do 45 and one half a stroke
How do you do half a stroke? (I didn't ask her)
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well, if a full stroke is up and down, then 1.5 is only up or only down. So if you start with a downstroke (which is, I think, almost any men's case), you should stop when your hand isdown, not bringing it up again.

At least that's what it seems to me.
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well I am locked up Again today
I did not get an orgasm
with 'play' time.

It's a whole new world for me
But still full of OD
Do I want this?
Yes and no?
I love long stroking sesssions
So being locked up not being able to strok at all
Is Different. Good and Bad Like the title of this original blog
Still I am happy I am wearing a very comfy device now
would be a lot worse locked up in something that was not comfortable.
Still can't rave enough about this CD/CB from Dungeon Delight
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